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breaking silence

It has been exactly fourteen months since I shared anything on this space. There were so many times that I wanted to sit and pour out onto the page, but then i didn’t because I thought it would sound too depressing. It’s been a season of the unknown (still is). So I chose silence instead of rambling because it was obvious there were things keeping me from opening up a window into my current world.

Silence gives me the time to evaluate and address what’s going on inside so I can then reflect it on the outside.

But extended silence can express indifference and that is certainly not the message I want to voice. So it’s time to break the silence.

The quick version of the last fourteen months goes like this: we had an unexpected move and before we moved our dog died (exactly a week after we found ourselves having to move), we moved in with my parents for what should have been a few months until we found a house to buy but that has turned into more than 400 days (not that I would be counting or anything), my little sister got married and had a baby (which entailed bridal shower, wedding, and baby shower planning all in a year), and I closed my business. :deep exhale:

But you know that there is so much more to the story. That’s what I want to share with you…not necessarily the details of every step that has brought me to where I am, but the lessons that I have learned along the way. If anything, it will at least be a cohesive way of preserving this part of my family’s story for the sake of not forgetting.

This space as you’ve known it will be changing over time. It will become a place with less borders; it’s not about business anymore. This is an invitation for you to join me as I share my journey of getting to a place where I can say I am freely living fully.

I am incredibly thankful to have had the time to capture these images of our dear Charlie with our kids one last time. There’s been few days that have gone by that our little girl has not mentioned her buddy.

berks county baby photographer | squishy kisses

It has been so much fun getting to photograph this cute little boy from his very first portraits to the big first year. I have loved seeing his personality emerge; from his very laid back newborn session to his sleepy session at 7 months to now–happy with a little hint of limit-testing (typical of toddlers). He really wanted to put some pebbles in his mouth, but kept looking up at his parents to see if they would approve. Then, when they weren’t looking, he went for it. Don’t worry, every pebble was recovered.

He still has the trophy for best hair ever.

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Kelly MNovember 13, 2014 - 11:00 pm

How fun to be able to watch him grow! Beautiful family session.

Nikki R.November 15, 2014 - 11:03 pm

These are great! This little cute is too cute:)

Lisa (Tout Petit Pixel)November 17, 2014 - 3:05 am

Adorable! Such a playful smile! His hair is simply priceless… And I love his deep dark eyes too!

berks county pa child photographer | funny faces

I’m frequently asked what I like to photograph best and my answer is surprising to most. I love macro photography. I get lost in details that are barely noticeable to the naked eye. My answer also stems from a state of indecisiveness. When it comes to photographing humans, it is hard to point to a specific stage of life that I’m draw to photograph more than others.

Take this three year old, for instance. How could I possibly say that I would prefer to get a squishy brand new baby to these hysterically funny expressions filled with equally funny wittiness? Can’t I just have both?

Indeed, I will get both. Next month. This guy will be graduating into the big brother shoes and I’ll get to photograph him and the little one together. Let’s hope the new one appreciates his humor as much as I do.

His yearly session was a bit different from past sessions in that our planning was very loose. His mommy wanted to go with the flow so we headed to some familiar spots (for them) in their town. Some of the resulting images are a bit more fun than my typical work, but it should be expected. We were at the playground so naturally there was more fun to be had!

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Amy KolodziejNovember 4, 2014 - 10:07 am

These are such beautiful images! I love the location and such vibrant fun colors 🙂

Bobbi-JoNovember 4, 2014 - 3:20 pm

haha, this little guy has the best expressions!

Brit ChandlerNovember 10, 2014 - 2:47 pm

Awww! This little guy has the best expressions that you captured 🙂 He’s going to be one awesome big brother!

berks county pa family photographer | warm embrace

How did I go so long without sharing this session? Absolutely one of my favorites from this past summer.

Words seem to fail me when trying to express how grateful I am for clients who trust me again and again with documenting snippets of their lives.

I wish the butterflies would stop fluttering in my stomach when I arrive and reconnect with past clients. It’s almost as if the pressure (mostly self-imposed) increases with each new session. The pressure comes from a desire to outdo my previous work and give clients my best.

My best should keep getting better, right?

Isn’t that what we do in relationships? We keep giving our best, never becoming complacent and comfortable with yesterday’s best. We seek today’s best, building on yesterday’s experiences.

Growth.

I’m thankful for clients like this family who are loyal and will drive a distance because they appreciate my work.

I appreciate them even more!

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Lisa (Tout Petit Pixel)October 14, 2014 - 9:59 am

Such gorgeous light!! And the connections you’ve captured are simply fabulous… Great work!!

AliseOctober 15, 2014 - 12:29 am

Oh, that little girl is so loved! What a beautiful family and beautiful images!

berks county fine art photographer | foggy

“Please get the kids up while I go get some coffee going. I really need some coffee this morning” whispered John to me on Sunday morning, his eyes still half shut struggling to connect with my eyes even after a refreshing shower.

“Sure. I’ll go in as soon as I’m dressed.”

Our typical Sunday morning routine had started off later than usual and team work would be an absolute must if we were going to make it to the 9 am church service.

Despite our time crunch, I was not saying “no” to the amazing man who will consistently get the kids up, dressed, and fed so I can have a little extra time to get ready on a Sunday morning.  My hair would have to do with fresh air as it’s stylist. A doubtful wardrobe moment led me downstairs to ask for John’s opinion on my outfit.

In front of the cabinet that houses the coffee canister I found a grumpy man, one whose excitement and hope of getting a jolt for the day had turned into disillusion. A pitiful “NO!” was followed with a half knelt man draping himself over the kitchen counter. Bitter coffee would have tasted better than disappointment.

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How often do we face situations of disappointment in our life? When things don’t go our way, the way that we’ve planned. Situations that leave you crushed, heart-broken, like you’ve taken a blow at the gut. Big disappointments. Little disappointments.

More than we’d like to admit.

What was supposed to be a summer of fun in the sun, relaxation, lots of reading, and exploration was more like a summer of fog, sleep deprivation, and a loss of rhythm. Even my hope of making beautiful, sunny, colorful, happy images of my children’s reflections on the salty water and sand during our beach vacation was met by clouds, rain, and fog–definitely not what I had in mind.

There is one thing we can be sure of. In this world, we will face challenges, disappointments, and frustrations amidst accomplishments, triumphs, and happiness. It’d be easy to stay positive if the good always outweighed the bad.

How do you go on when things don’t go as planned?

What fixes it?

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In the wise words of Eleanor H. Porter’s Pollyanna, “when you’re hunting for the glad things, you sort of forget the other kind…”

Perspective.

Look beyond the fog.

What you get might be more beautiful than what you could have ever dreamed or imagine yourself.

beach boyI came home with images that remind me of the fog and the beauty that lies within it and beyond it. When I went hunting for the glad things, I found that in the fog I was learning and growing. It forced me to explore and have fun despite the lack of clarity. It pushed me to be still and be in the moment, even if the moment was not what I had dreamed.

Here and now. The people I love the most with me. Fully alive.reading pa black and white photographerfather son foggy run on beachAs for John and his coffee? Well, we opted to set aside our clean eating lifestyle for just one morning. We got our kids dressed and headed for the church cafe where we indulged in bagels and freshly brewed coffee. It wasn’t the breakfast of our kind of champions, but preserving peace and joy on that morning was more beneficial to our whole being than any whole food I could have served up.

JohnSeptember 3, 2014 - 9:52 am

Truly moved by your words and art. Raising the level of expectancy.

I love you Beira, thank you.

John

SamanthaSeptember 5, 2014 - 2:05 pm

Beautiful images, and thank you for the thought-provoking post.

BonnieSeptember 6, 2014 - 5:14 pm

Beautiful images and a wonderful perspective!

JoOctober 10, 2014 - 8:44 pm

Love it!

JoleneNovember 21, 2014 - 3:38 pm

Beautifully written! And your photography is amazing!

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